It's gorgeous here. The sun is bright, the water is warm, and the sand is soft...hot, but soft. To be honest the dunes are kind of an eyesore, but other than that, everything else makes it worth it. Even in this great place, I'm completely over family vacations. Don't get me wrong. They're great. We get to go to cool places, and I don't have to pay! At the same time, I just feel too old to still be hanging with my family 24/7. I live with them, and when we go on a trip, I'm stuck with them. Granted, I could probably call a friend. Unfortunately, I am very uncomfortable using phones for calls. Don't ask me why; I haven't quite figured it out yet myself. The point is, even if I wanted to get away, I couldn't. I'm not allowed to drive either of the cars we took with us because I'm not "comfortable" with them yet. That, and I have nowhere to go. Plus, my brothers are irritating the crap out of me. One is a teenager with mood swings like a drunk girl, and the other is an 11 year old maniac with a loud and utterly obnoxious agenda. Of course I love them, but it all gets to be too much. I mean, come on. I should be out of the house by now, away at college, living in a dorm with a bunch of other people my age and taking care of myself. Here I just feel super dependent and lacking of freedom. Point is, it's somewhat lonely. I'm alone in gender, and I'm alone in my own maturity level, not to mention my seemingly unique way to deal with problems in a calmly fashion. Why my 40 something year old parents still have difficulty with that I will never know.
I am here on vacation, on a beach no less. I will rant here, but enjoy all that I can, even after the next fight breaks after...which should be within the next 10 minutes...I will be fine. Breath. Relax. I will be fine.
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